Scary reality of switching majors!

I have less than two years left till I get my degree under business management. Originally, I didn't want to enter college. I knew I wanted to eventually go, but not immediately. I wanted to get a job or two, save save save and move to NY and if that didn't work start a business and venture into the college world, not working for anyone but my consumers.

Of course my parents pressured me to the point I would feel stupid and sick for not going (I am the child, right? And parents know best, right?). Thinking of what others would think of me "your friends will be so far in life and you'll be behind" dreadfully stuck with me as I enrolled into courses I didn't want to take - plowed through courses barely making it by.

I've probably failed this semester. I think I missed my finals. GPA going from a 3.5 to a really do I give a fxcx 2.4!!! Now probably at the pointed of being booted out of the door. (I can't stay if GPA falls under a 2.0)...

IM OVER DOING WHAT EVERYONE ELSE WANTS ME TO DO OR THINKS I SHOULD DO.

This is not deriving from some huge life realization (well kinda actually). But I am tired, literally tired of living to please everyone. I am here to please my God. I have made terrible decisions, unwise decisions, decisions that could have me bonded for a lifetime - but I claim perseverance in this new year (starting now!!).

My child which I have already found as the greatest gift given to me, baby has given me the courage to start college all over. Chasing things I really desire. Devouring my main goals... 

1. Acing all courses toward a dental hygienist degree (I have to start from scratch, scary but ready!!)

2. Taking vlogging seriously (who knew holding a camera all day is so much work?)

3. Dedicating myself to a church home (getting involved and making it feel like a family)

4. Starting my own hair product and/or home decor shop (brand, etc)

With a child on the way my dedication and passion for success (not to be rich or own every expensive thing in life) but for success (the accomplishment of an aim or purpose) has risen to the only option. Of course I want a bedroom for my child (not under the roof of my parents) and life stability, but somethings just don't engross me like they used to. College funds and family vacations are so important to me.

Someone once said "I would rather take my ten dollars and DO something than BUY materialistic things - go bowling, a long drive, skating - to make an experience or create a memory with my ten dollars" and I totally agree!